♥3 months left before we tie the knot! ♥

These past few days have been exceptionally tough on our bodies. Being on shift does have its perks as well as negatives. Having 6 days off is wonderful however,switching between day-shift and night-shift is awful. The first day off is always a write-off because we have to switch back to regular human hours and drive 5 hours to the city. We’ll try to split the drive between us so we’ll both get some rest. It’s a very uneventful, dreary and tedious ride with the occasional greetings from the RCMP. Doing this road trip every 6 days can take a toll on you. We got beaten up pretty bad this set off and we’ve been having a hard time falling asleep past couple nights. Even Melatonin was useless against our body clock.

4 am conversations.

A : Are you still awake?  

R :  Motha’ f*cker! We’re so fked tmr @!#!%#@$!@%#@^%##@$!@$!

Imagine a permanent hangover and djembe  drums playing in your head all day long …. for 3 days !

I wouldn’t wish it upon my second worst enemy. Adam was doing far better than me. The first morning after a sleepless night was awful. I never thought I’d ever experience fainting ’til that day. I got out of bed to pee and the next thing I know, I was on the floor staring at Adam. Apparently I toppled over before I even made it to the toilet bowl. Hit my head on the tub going down but was oblivious to that when it happened. Truthfully, I didn’t know where I was … All I could remember was the soft mat under my back and Adam’s panicked face staring at me. For that momentary feeling of a fleeting awareness, I decided that I wanted to stay where I was because I was feeling quite cozy and nothing else matters. It’s like hitting a “Pause” on busy highway and watch the cars stop while you figure a way to cross the road.

Eventually, we picked up some health supplements to speed things up and finally, on day 4, we’re back from Zombieland. I wanted to cry when Adam suggested that we do a set of Kayla to kick-start our system.

Sophie giving some encouragement to Daddy. Mommy got none =(

It was hard keeping last night’s dinner from decorating the floor but we made it!


Let it Go… Let it GOOOOOO!

Can’t hold it back anymoreeeeee!!

hopefully the people behind us don’t know it’s me …. *sniff*

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We checked out the Ice Castles with Pam and Paul. It was pretty … and bloody cold. Weather App said it was 2 Degrees …. Yeah right.




I’ve been toying with the idea of starting a blog again for a while. The last time I shared my personal life online was almost 10 years ago. I stopped because I realized I’ve been very candid with my thoughts and shameless self-promoting. Consequently, I developed a reasonable fear of my “not-so-secret” life jeopardizing my future (ie. Getting a job).

The reason I wanted to get back into blogging again was the “On this Day” app on Facebook. I was smart enough (back then) to link my blogposts to Facebook notes. So, every now and then, I’ll receive a reminder on memories that happened over the years. It’s almost like reading a diary, except that it was all over the Internet. No matter how embarrassing or silly the posts were, it was nostalgic to read my young self. I was so carefree with my writings and had no fear of being judged. With age, I gradually became conservative with expressing my thoughts and eventually stopped sharing them completely.

Enough of this resignation talk. First posts should be a little more exciting. Like How I Met Adam – the love of my life.

It all started on the last shift of my job, 4 years ago. Time flies. I wrote a farewell email to all the people I worked with in that department. I received a lot of a well wishes and of course, one email stood out more than the others.


I read and re- read it probably 10 times before I sent my reply. A little backstory to this …. Adam and I had little to no social interactions when we were in the same area. We had an amicable working relationship but that was all. He was known as a very serious, quiet and very demanding person. Plus, almost all the girls in my area had crushes on him. I remember during my co-op, I’d hear girls gushing about him and I’m like who’s this Adam. He was the youngest manager and of course, cute to boot. I admit, I too thought he was attractive but I refuse to Erm, be part of that cult. Plus, he was also unavailable so it was a no-go zone for me. For a couple years at least. And that brings me back to the fateful email.

I wrote back and half anticipating that he probably won’t respond. I honestly thought he was just being polite. But of course !


He replied and left me even more confused . I even consulted a close male friend – Myz – to analyze the emails … Yes, I was that clueless.

“He’s obviously interested in you. He’s asking questions and initiating conversation!”

When I heard that, I was giddy and nervous with excitement. Giddy because it’s been a while I’ve had any romantic encounters. Nervous because I’ve had so many dissapointing relationships that I was at the verge of giving up on finding love at all. Truthfully, I was at my lowest point in my dating history. I even entertained the idea of dating very wrong and incompatible men but I wasn’t that desperate yet.

“OMG What should I I say???!!” 

I wrote and re-wrote my reply multiple times because I didn’t want to come across too strong nor appear too interested ….. All the shitty online dating advice crossed my mind while I stared at my response. Ugh. I hit Send, went on my Yoga Ashram Cult retreat and not think about it anymore. After all, why dream so high when the sky is unattainable? (Such terrible self-confidence I had)


Play it cool, Don’t be a fool …



Be still my beating heart …

I consulted Myz again.

Should I add him on BBM? Would it be too aggressive? Will he think I’m desperate ?!!! What do I do ??!!!!

“Just do it.”

And so I did. Best decision I’ve ever made in my life.